Am I the chosen one to welcome this apparition we call sadness?
Or am I the one to triumph over the entity that endlessly haunts my every thought in a continuum?

A ruling of manslaughter to the first degree I was charged with.
I killed your love you had for me.
Forcefully relinquishing the title that connected us as my Lady and your Man was a heavy price to pay.

Now my feelings are trapped in a domain that harvests true love and sentimental experiences.
My mind plays out a never ending scene,
A scene reenacting my soul diving into your love pool.

Longing to submerge my entire essence deep in your abyss of darkness.
Only to once again encounter the untamed forces of love or a fear of a fate that was once so long ago.

Shall I take a chance and risk destroying the wall of security?
A wall I comfortably stand behind and watch all the opportunities of love pass me by.
Shall I step out unto the battlefield of life armed with numb emotions and perforate as many unsuspecting victims as I can?

Or shall I wait until the smoke clears and see what destiny has in store?
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